[Lyric] Alex - 화분 [Flower Pot] + translation

The first time I heard this song was when I watched Alex and Sinae in We Got Married, the most romantic couple, too bad their life as married couple in the show stopped early because Alex was too busy with his schedule, and when he's not 'that busy', Sinae got married for real with her real life lover.

Alex (Clazziquai)

한글

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
아무 말 못해도 바랄수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요
떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
나을수 없는 병을 앓게 한거죠
화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
아무 말 못해도 바랄수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

Romanized

Meolliseo meolliseo meolliseo geudaega oneyo
I ddeollineun maeumeul eoddeohke marhaeya hanayo

geudaen cheoeumbuteo naui maeumeul bbaeatgo

naeulsu eobsneun byeongeul naege jueottjyo

hwabuni dwillaeyo naneun neul gidohajyo

 

nan geudae jageun changgae hwabuni dwelgeyo

amu mal mothaedo baralsu eobseodo

gakkeum gedaeui misowa songireul badeumyeo

jamdeun geudae eolgul han eobsi bol su ittgettjyo

 

Meolliseo meolliseo meolliseo geudaega ganeyo
ddeoreojineun nunmureul eoddeohke dallaeya hanayo

geudaen cheoeumbuteo naui maeumeul gajyeottgo

naeulsu eobsneun byeongeul alhge hangeojyo

hwabuni dwegopeun naneun neul gidohajyo

 

nan geudae jageun changgae hwabuni dwelgeyo

amu mal mothaedo baralsu eobseodo

gakkeum gedaeui misowa songireul badeumyeo

jamdeun geudae eolgul han eobsi bol su ittgettjyo

 

Translation

From afar, from afar, from afar, you are coming
How can I describe in words about this trembling heart
You stole my heart from the beginning
And gave me an incurable sickness
I want to become a flowerpot, I always pray

I’ll become a flowerpot on your small windowsill
Even if I can’t talk or wish for anything
I could receive your smile and touch every now and then
And see your fast asleep face

From afar, from afar, from afar, you are leaving
How can I stop these trembling tears
You, took my heart from the beginning
And made me fall ill with an incurable sickness
I want to become a flowerpot, I always pray

I’ll become a flowerpot on your small windowsill
Even if I can’t talk or wish for anything
I could receive your smile and touch every now and then
And see your fast asleep face

KPOP and I

Korean Wave had entered my country, Indonesia, since year 2000. At that time, Indonesian were still not interested with Korean Pop or dramas. Not until 가을동화 [Ga Eul Dong Hwa] or Autumn in My Heart, or also widely known as Endless Love become a headline. People started to watch more Korean dramas, such as 겨울연가 [Gyeo Ul Yeon Ga] or Winter Sonata. If I'm about to list out the dramas, I could only list up the most popular ones, like Full House, 궁 [Goong] or Princess Hours, 대장금 [Dae Jang Geum] or Jewel in the Palace, 동이 [Dong Yi], and of course I should and must mention 꽃보다 남자 [Kkot Bo Da Nam Ja] or Boys Over Flowers which was the started of it all.

But when did Korean Wave started getting its well-deserved attention in this country?

Super Junior would be the first group mentioned if you ask 'Kpoppers' back then in mid 2000s, and even though there are so many groups known by now, Super Junior is still one of the popular one.

But I'm here talking about my Kpop life, so when did I started 'stanning' KPOP? I'll say, 2002 or so, and it wasn't cause by any Korean drama, in fact it was because a Taiwanese drama MVP 情人 [MVP Qíng Rén] or MVP Lover. The drama used some Korean song for its soundtrack, and that was the beginning. I started stanning BoA after I listened to No.1 and Waiting, and then Shinhwa for their Perfect Man and Shout, Fly to the Sky for their Sea of Love.

 

I got to know WAX after her songs 사랑하고 싶어 (I Want to Love) and 날 떠난 이유 (Reason Why I Left You) were used in At the Dolphin Bay drama. Also, Baby VOX, ever since I heard Coincidence.

That's how I became a Kpopper. The name 'Kpopper' itself is barely used now, usually people will call themselves as Korean Lovers.

I became a Cassiopeia (fan of 동방신기 [Dong Bang Shin Ki] or well known as TVXQ) in 2007, and that's when I started to learn about antis and about how toxic and dangerous they are. Then there were fan-wars between Cassiopeia and VIP (Bigbang fans). Even after Bigbang and TVXQ made a collaboration stage for SBS Gayo Daejeon, the fan-wars still happen here and there.

But the worst antis was Girls Generation's antis. The black ocean in 2008 was the worst and it should never happen to any performance.

And I was also a S♥NE (read: 소원 [So Won], means: Wish], that moment was really sad. I was mad.

Anyway.

There was this thing that we called as 'Gathering', it's an event where Kpoppers meet and shares our interest with each other, it was a thing until early 2010 before Korean Concerts started entering our country's venue. Of course, Rain was the first singer to held a concert in Indonesia, it was on 2009, but after 2010, there were a lot of concerts.

Not only concert, the thing we called 'antis' also started happening. They were already existed since 2000s, but back in that era, there were only antis of certain group, in this topic I meant antis of Kpopper. Ever since the Korean wave hit big in Indonesia, everything is Korean involved, even the towel in the market would be labeled as 'Korean towel'. I'm not surprised if people in general would feel irritated by that, even I felt irritated.

Back to my fangirling life. Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Junsu decided to leave TVXQ in 2009, and I was sad, I chose to leave the fandom than to be torn inside being a Cassiopeia at that time. I've been to several Cassiopeia's gatherings, and I like being in that circle, but since JYJ is leaving, there was chaos.

I focused on Bigbang, 2NE1, and Girls Generation since then. But in 2011, I found the perfect fandom to join, and that is A+ (fan of MBLAQ), and all of it because I watched Sesame Player. 

A+ is a peaceful fandom that will only care of MBLAQ, the fandom name itself came from the fact that all MBLAQ members' blood type are A. 

But my bias, Lee Joon, along with Thunder, left the group after their contract expired in 2014 (just two years after that unforgettable concert). That broke my heart, to the extent that I don't want to listen to Kpop anymore.

But in 2015, I finally find my last group I'll ever stan. EXO.

I know I was late like for 3 years long, but it's better than never.

I happen to stan EXO at the right time. EXO was there when I was alone, their songs kept my spirit when I was down, and when I was at the darkest side of my life, I have EXO to make me smile. This time, it's not just a fangirling thing, but I admire them as an adult. Some might say they grew up stanning EXO, but I am thankful that at least, in my life, I stan the right one.

I don't and won't regret stanning EXO whatever happen. 

That Time When I Was Really Lucky

I've posted this on my previous blog that I couldn't open again because it was registered with a yahoo mail account and now blogger only use google account so I must verify the ID and password using my phone number which I don't use anymore.... let's just move on with that blog, but I'd like to rewrite this here. This is about that time when I was a fan of MBLAQ and I got two free tickets to their concert when I was broke. Like, it doesn't happen all the time, but yeah, a simple competition won me a golden time (not to mention I got the gold seats too).

 

The competition was held by Korean Culture and Information Service on HiSeoul facebook page on July 2012. They were giving free tickets for 15 best entry on 'Write Your MV Concept for MBLAQ Non-MV Song' (I made up that title but that's what it was all about).

I made a futuristic time travel to Joseon era theme for MBLAQ - RUN, and it was actually used for their SBS Gayo Daejun performance at the end of the year (or at least that's what I think happened). I mean, they usually used ninja concept when performing this song, but at this performance they combined futuristic concept with traditional joseon type scenes at the background, so just let me have my own happy imagination. But it did won me something unforgettable anyway. Here if you want to read the MV script i wrote, to read it comfortably, just copy and paste it on MS Word first, you've been warned.

I had to use fan video because the SBS' ones can't be played here.

The BLAQ% Concert was held in June 30, 2012, in Mata Elang International Stadium, Ancol, North Jakarta.

I can still remember the feeling in my heart when I entered the venue, the first song I heard playing on the speakers while the audiences, the fans, were still entering the venue and taking seats, was MBLAQ - One. I was so excited when I arrived at the Gold section's front row where two seats were booked for me, and my cousin who's also a fan that I took along with me because I had two free tickets. Here to get a view of how the venue was.

I couldn't sit calmly on my seat because I can't  help but being so hyper about the event that was about to start in minutes (it was delayed for 15 minutes), and then the fans started chanting "MBLAQ! MBLAQ! MBLAQ! MBLAQ! MBLAQ!" until the lights dimmed and we all just screamed our heart out.

The concert started with a VCR of MBLAQ fighting in the rain with other dudes, then the members' names displayed one by one. Only a second after, the ninja dancers jumped into the stage and starts their performance, followed by MBLAQ coming up slowly from under the stage.

MBLAQ - Run was the first song they performed. What a coincidence.

There will be no fan video made by me or my cousin uploaded anywhere because they were full of our dirty talks and unearthly screaming. But we got some pictures of them, I'll share some of them.

Disclaimer, these pics was uploaded on my old blog too, that watermark is mine. 

After waving goodbye and left the venue, we walked with our new friends who also won the free tickets like me, we met when we were claiming our tickets. She was also the lucky one who won the lottery to get the only platinum seat and backstage pass. Yes, out of 15 winners, one would get that by taking numbers when claiming tickets.

She took this pic and shared with us.

Anyway, the concert was a success one despite of not being sold out, but all the fans were happy, the boys also did their best, I lost my voice, and my cousin almost fought with a security for the bouquet of flower Seungho was holding when he performed. That flower wasn't given away but it was above a cabinet in the waiting room to the backstage where we were waiting for our friend meeting MBLAQ inside their room, my cousin wanted it as Seungho was her bias, but the security took it away. 😂

This cousin of mine, she's a fighter. I must tell you, she did jumped off the fence between gold section and ran to the front row of the platinum section, so that she could took clear pictures of the boys (the five pictures before the one above was taken by her), she was caught by a security member at that section but instead of backing away, she told the security to back off, and the security did. I didn't go with her because I'm too timid to jump off the fence.

That night was an unforgettable event for me.